Plummet

Desperate for changing... starving for truth... closer to where I started... chasing after YOU...

There are so many mistakes that we wish we could erase. So many times when we did or said stupid things. So many events in our lives that we rather forget... but once all these are done... there is no taking it back. Once we decide on something... we take a risk in doing so. We always put something on the line, whether it be material possessions, our pride, dignity, or a lot more. But then if we look at it... risks are a part of our everyday lives are they not? We risk waking up only to face a horrible day. We risk crossing the street to get run over by a car. We risk exposing ourselves to chance that we may get hurt. We risk all these and more. Once this is done... there is no taking it back.

Plummet... that is what I am feeling at the moment. I feel as if I have stepped off the cliff by my own will and came plummeting down with no clue what will happen. This is one risk I took... a risk I decided on for the first time of my life. Risking friendship and everything else in hopes that something will stop you from hitting the jagged rocks below... hoping that a hand would reach out to save you... only to come to a drastic end.

Shattered into a million pieces... I ask myself if I would still find a reason to be whole. Torn apart... ripped... I am going through a rapid hope loss. Something I thought was for the best... turned out otherwise... sometimes... it is better to keep things left unsaid.

Coldness... denseness... it's alarming how some people can get like this... Often times... I wish I was more like them...

And when this is all over... when the pain has left me... when the wounds have closed and when my shattered being becomes whole again... I will face you... I will face you standing upright and strong...

As she peered over the towering cliff, she was at a loss. To take a step and risk it... knowing not where she will land... or to stay on her very patch of land... not risking anything and sticking with what she is familiar with. The sun was burning in the velvet skies when she decided. She closed her eyes and stepped off... knowing not what will happen or where she would land. She stepped off and came plunging down. Not a sound was heard... no movement was felt and as she hit the ground... her frail body shattering against the jagged rocks... she knew she was mistaken in thinking something wonderful could be found past the edge. She was mistaken but could not do anything anymore... and as the last sign of life left her... the rain fell down in heavy revulets... the skies darkened, blocking out the sun as the heaven's wept for her... the tears she could not cry... the tears she kept inside...

...::Jacqueline::...